forever not named... BOOMSHAKALAKA~

I cried today but not because I was happy or going to miss everyone… I cried because you said who you like and everything shattered inside of me…only because it want me. I can see why… no one likes me no matter what.

its a good thing to forget. I need to forget. I cant forget. why? because you dug yourself into my brain and heart. now I cant dig you out. GET OUT. YOU LIKE HER. I LIKE YOU. BUT YOU LIKE HER. HAVE HER IM NO BETTER. IM JUST A LONER THAT NO ONE LIKES. GOOD. KILL ME NOW. IM NOT WORTH IT.

all I want is a hug from you before I never see you again… like you said “we might meet each other again. maybe even become life-time lovers.” but thats “might” after whats happened I don’t think any of these “mights” will happen. with you saying “i hope we will only be friends and nothing more.” thats how I know for sure thoughs “MIGHTS” will always be never.

screaming-scars:

All I need is for someone in real life to hug me and tell me everything is going to be alright. Look at my scars then look in my eyes and see that I’m not okay. Why can’t anyone see it? Or do they ignore it because I’m just another ‘teen cutter’?

I swear everytime someone talks to me im afraid they will yell at me or be really pissed at me…im so tramatized, I feel weak… but what is that to everyone? nothing? ok… I have no friends. great thanks for ditching me. I wonder why you even try to like me. if you don’t, stop trying. I’ll get the message. I’m useless, I’m not worth it, I’m not anything. so if you don’t like me then leave me alone. stop wasting your time on me. if I like you then leave me. its perfectly fine. thats happened… hmm many many times now. being abandoned is perfectly fine. leaving someone heartbroken is perfectly fine. EVERYTHING IS PERFECTLY FINE. but thats only to you. not me.

it hurts. ill give up. thats my choice.

It’s okay even if I can’t see It’s okay even if I can’t breath If I could meet you only once If I could give you all my heart

How much more do I have to miss you So that maybe you could know my heart? How much more do I to cry and cry So that tears could be dry?

Does it hurt because of loving you? Is it the punishment for loving you so much? Even though you say that I can lose everything It’s okay if I just have you to be with me

Even if my heart is broken when loving you Even if my heart is separated when waiting for you It’s okay because I love you It’s okay even if I get hurt

The farther I turn away so as to forget you The more I miss you, What can I do Even when you keep telling me it’s not right just

to keep me away from you You are the only one to me, What can I do

Does it hurt because of loving you? Is it the punishment for loving you so much? Even though you say that I can lose everything It’s okay if I just have you to be with me

Even if my heart is broken when loving you Even if my heart is separated when waiting for you It’s okay because I love you It’s okay even if I get hurt

Even if I get poisoned and pricked My love for you can’t stop I will wait for you until forever I will endure even if it hurts and hurts

Because of loving you more It’s okay even if tears fall down It’s okay even if it hurts…